Who do you think you are..

Mode: pissed

heyy.. im kinda pissed right now.. after goin thru my litanny.. oh well. im sorry if i just filled out my blogspot just now.. (my bad..) been caught up with lots of things these past few weeks..

oh well.. so what made me pissed now?.. its all about this one guy.. (its L.. ) who im tryin to holla at earlier.. but didnt find time to say hey or hello before leaving.. good thing i have another ym.. (which I kno he forgot, that it still existin..) i logged out to my first ym.. and logged on to the other one.. and i found out that he is still online on my other ym account.. stupid.. soo stupid.. ..

who do you think he is?.. i dunno what I did for him to do such act.. was he mad at me last sunday? for i sed gudbye. (reasonin out that I was tired..) but to hell with my actions.. I didnt do such things for him to feel that he's out.. or whatever..

I am pissed off. soo damn pissed. i dunno what are his reasons.. one thing I know.. im beggining to hate him a lot..

I know you love me...

heyy. im freakin bak!. its been blah days or lemme say a week now, that I haven't blog.. what the?.. im freakin lazy not to mention my being praning kept me out of sanity last week.. so what I been up to? oh well nothin much.. i just work, work, work..and work.. need i say much?.. nothin excitin happened last week.. my convo's with L were nothin special.. didn't talk sweet the last week.. he was so darn busy, and i kept myself busy too.. to cut it short. our love story is kinda boring.. yah.. lemme spell that out to you its B-O-R-I-N-G as hell.. lol..

oh, yah! been plannin too much about my life.. i am rearranging mylife u kno. to make it more exciting and yah worthwhile.. im not in the mood right now to list my plans.. lol. as always.. i am f@ckin busy.. lol.. so there.. nothin much to share.. L is online right now. and yah I guess he's darn busy to open a convo..

till next.. i kno u love me.. xoxo.lol

I can be alone..

heyy.. this is a mellow-dramatic day.. as in.. while im blogging this piece.. my tears are falling down.. . well currently. L is very busy talkin to another girl.. and she wasn't ordinary girl.. he tried to holla at her before, but the thing was she was talkin to someone before.. that's why their lovestory didnt click that time.. and now they're starting to get close again.. and now.. what I am doin is waiting for him, but he never took the time to talk to me nor to say what u doin..

heyy. life gets tough each day.. though he told the girl that he's not looking for a girl now.. but i feel sumthing.. he wouldnt take time to talk to this girl, if he doesnt like her..

oh well.. ill let him be.. I can be alone.. i can watch a sunset on my own.. ..

Enough sed L.. obviously u didn't want to stick around.. so i learnt from you-kate nash

make me whole..

heyy.. wb!!hahaha.. urghh been damn tired to blog again last nyt.. im here in my office. no classes yet so might as well blog things first.. what had transpired last nyt? oh well L had his drama episode.. i made fun of him and he then got irritated and started saying that he didnt want to talk to me.. and then he stopped replying to my msgs.. oh well damnit.. no worries.. he's so confident that I can't resist him ryt? . well surprise L.. i won't initiate a convo again.. as in.. what does he think about me?.. damn it.. ( did i say damn it?)lol..

enough sed.. don't want to talk about him now.. he's still not yet online.. and i won't text him EVER..

what happened today? i had an early trip to Robinsons.. ate at a fancy restaurant. ( if greenwhich is a fancy resto.. yah sure..) i opened an account in BPI.. oh yah. its just an e-cash. but i need it tho.. to get rid off my cash.. (as if I have cash)hahahaha.. and then i paid my globe bill. yay! after like 2 mons..hahahaha.. i then met fio and had a lil chit-chat with her at cheesecake.. me and my latte babiie.. lol..

so there currently.. i am listening to azure's song " Stick with u".. oh yah.. i remember. someone told me that this was his song for me.. hahaha.who's that guy btw?.. hahahaha.. too insignificant to be remembered.. i just want to fill out the spaces of this blog that's why i mentioned it.lol..

nothin much to blog .. i have to get ready for my class with phoebe.. and oh yah. L hasn't go online yet.. won't wait tho.. . im all gud..

(to be continued).. i still checked tho if he was online..hahahaha.. (can't resist)

Its nice being adored by sumone i adore the most..

heyy.. im here again after like 3days of not bloggin..lol.. so what's up with me?.. oh well. we talked last weekend.. and yah i was soo happy.. we didn't talk about much about our feelings.. still the same convo.. nothingness.. but i am still happy.. cheerful and hopeful..

Wat's the height of our today's convo?.. oh well.. he told me that I am the girl he used to adore.. i kno it sounded soo past .. who knows?lol.. currently, I am listening to the song.. " if ur not the one.." and hell yeh.. it moves me.. . hahahaha.. nah-dah im just inlove.. and i wanna just say heyy to my neglected blogspot..
before i end this .. I have one question.. " Is there anyway that I can stay in his arms?" lol


I was just happy hearing his lines..hope to hear more.. lovin L.. as in..
(to be continued)

sweet talkins are GAME OVER

.. heyy.. i forgot to blog last night.. been caught up with lots of work.. nah.. im just totally lazy.. no time to do stuff.. to check friendster.. mail and yeh my blog..

so what ive been up to.. well NOTHIN. i am so preocuppied with my work and chattin..hahahaha.. (work and L babiee).. yeh we talked last nyt and yeh tonyt too... nothin special tho. we just talked and played around.. he was actually tryin to sound kool. and.. doesnt open up about his feelings.. i thot i can blog now his everday emotions and feelings about ME.. but nah.. he just joked around.. How can I initiate sweet talkin if he's always like that.. danG!..

Well. i wanna vent out pala my FEELINGS about my student.. damnit.. he's really testing my patience.. he really wants to see my DARK SIDE.. well, ur wish is my command ANDREW.. u play again on our class. and UR DEAD.. i swear.. hahahahahaha

they're there.. i'm here. nah. i hope I cna go home now.. i am really sleepy.. but Boo and J ann are still busy doin sum stuff.. danG! i miss my BED bigtime.. and my pillow.. i wanna hold it TYT na..haaaaaaaaY!


(to be continued)

he's deadma..hahaha

I'm here in the office.. nothin much to do.. so i myt as well blog things.. uhmmm.. my baby-love is online ryt now.. but nah.. he's deadma.. i dunno why he's not saying Hey.. maybe later.. maybe not.. watever is his respond.. im not gonna let myself affected today.. I am happy.. I am carefree.. and i have a great day ahead..

(to be continued).. ciao!

too many miles between US

Dang! ima do the chasing now..

heyy. i keep on comin back today.. because i kno there are things that i need to pour out. or best to get rid off before it get rids of me.. how am i feeling after talkin to L?.. nah.. never been worse in my entire life.. I felt bad, after we talked.. weather its kool with him, or it didn't affect him.. either way.. i still feel sleazy.. and these feelings kill me..

I feel right now that yes! truly sumthings change.. (he kept on repeating that wen we were talking last sunday..he told me.. "ill never let you go.. things change".. i don't kno what he meant by those lines.. i don't kno how things changed.. does he love more?.. or he loves me less... whatever that is he's meaning to say.. I still feel miserable.. miserable.. that I want to stop talking to him.. that I want to hide myself and believe my instincts that he really doesn't love me.. not even close..

I acted dumb tonyt.. and I dunno why.. I sed things that upset me after saying it.. I sed words that is too uncalled for .. and i really feel MISERABLE.. or i guess more than that..
.. i first told him..

J: I missed having bf already
L: maybe manu can help u with that
well manu is the guy that he keeps on mentioning whenever we are chatting.. before he was teasing me to him.. and tried to conceal his jealous tone.. but right now.. he is actually want me to go for him.. and it really irritates me

... another dumb act..
L: mahal in the club.. is luv still mahal in tagalog ryt?
J: nah mahal is tae..
L: tae ka..
J: tae ka rin..
L: dang.. i thot u got class
and yeh.. right then and there. i wanna hide myself from saying those words.. i hate myself damn much.. would i still keep talkin to him.. i kno its quite shallow.. but yah.. I scored low when i sed those words... dang.. this is unbelievable.. far from being possible.. I mean it..

.. another silly act..

L: where are ur pics. go send
J: nah.. its not yet done..
L: why? models get their pics too.. that's wat u get after working with a gay.
J: nah.. don't judge my friend.. he's a cool gay.. and i lovee him..
L: i am just saying..
J: but i love uu more..
L: yah right..lol


see?.. how can he react so indifferently.. where in fact before, everytime we talked about our feelings. he instantly giving in or pouring out everything he wanted to share..but right now.. urrrrghhh.. i kno there's sumthin wrong.. i feel that.. and i have to make a move.. i don't want this sweet love to end like this..

.. September is like 4 mons away.. and I still have time.. to make things just the way it was before.. it's never too late.. to be sumone he likes.. ( nah that's wrong) he shud like me for who i am ryt?.. still..dang. ryt now.. ima do all the chasing.. ack!.. (to be continued)..

he sed HI..

back again..



so after like 30 mins of waiting or more.. he then sed HI.. ( i won again).. i thot he's not gonna drop by to say hey.. but he did.. and i am soo ha-ha-happpy..hahahaha..waiiiit.. ima talk to him first.. and blog here the full dits of what we talked about..





after like 4 ours of chattin with him.. i just don't kno what dits to enter tonyt.. I am hella dumb ryt now.. and I kno.. he's beggining to lose the interest that he has for me.. i have to do sumthing.. he told me last sunday.. there are sumthings changed.. I shud go back from being a good girl.. hay.. i'm not in the mood.. catch ya later..

the waiting game..

...20 mins. of waiting:

heyy.. sooo I'm back.. and im hella late again.. hahahaha.. guess wat?.. he's online.. and ive been waiting for him almost 20 mins now.. but hell yeh.. he's deadma..no hello's or watsoever.. danG! do i have to make the first move today.. nah.. ima go down in a bit.. and smoke my lungs out.. i''l be prayin tho that when I come back he already sent a message for me..i hella wish.. hay....( to be continued)

Sexy.. that's wat he sed

Talkin about: The Chasing Part..

I think I need to blog things ( about my lovelife) starting tonyt!! ( nah i just don't kno wat to do ryt now) but yah i really need a channel to pour out my sentiments about this THUG LOVE..hahahaha..

oh yah.. we've been talking for almost 5 mons now.. and take note: we are talkin everyday.. need i say more? do i have to emphasize the EVERYDAY word.. nah.. call me watever you think.. but im beggining to fall big time.. as in hella big time..

I still don't kno what he does to me... i am still thinkin why he got me.. and makin me soo into him.. aside from the fact that yah.. he's my frequent chatmate-sumtimes textmate.. (its just me lol)-a family friend (not to mention his sis loves me BIGTIME..) and yah he's a hottie (lol).. i dunno wat else he does to make me go gaga over him.. but Im liking what Im feeling.. and i wanna feel more.. (yay!)

We chatted again today, and yah, as always.. we are waitin who's gonna say the first HELLO for the day".. (oh snap) i won today.. ( i won last week too.. one week straight he's the one who made the first move).. and when he starts to open a convo.. i think first for hella 2mins before goin to answer.. nah, i don't want him to think that i am always available whenever he wants to to have a lil chit -chat.. or watever you call it.. i don't want him to have a hint that I'm always on a panic-mode whenever he hits the send button.. nah.. i don't want him to think that way.. but hell yeh.. That's what I feel..(lol) i know i am pakipot, every Filipina is.. ryt?.. nah.. save ur time.. don't answer..lol

.. oh btw. how will i forget.. we chatted for hella 8 hours last night.. (sunday) and it was FUN.. FUN.. FUN...did i say FUn?..lol.. do u wanna kno what's his pick-up line last night?.. well, sinabi nya lang naman na.. I'll NEVER LET YOU GO.. ( whoah.. faith evans' pick up line) but,. then again. deadma.. i won't give him the slightest idea.. that I am EASY.. n-o-w-a-y!!!.. hahahaha. but yah.. i wanna give in tho, and tell him... Promise? U won't let me go?.. yay!.. -nah.. i rily won't go down yet to that level.. Iam enjoying the chasing part.. whatever-they-call-it.. courting.. chasing..nah.. not now... another thing that really makes my heart beat slower-and-faster-at the-same-time was the THAILAND trip.. (do u really want to hear the details.. call me then..lol).. if i can only make time ticks fast.. its already august ryt now.. and yah.. i am already wearing my sexiest clothes ever.. and meeting him in Phuket Thailand.. but, again.. Im still enjoying the CHASING part.. and yah i'm lovin it..lol..

.. so yah, talkin about the PRESENT...we chatted again today.. do i need to write down the nitty-gritty of what we talked about.. nah.. i only focused myself to his SIGNIFICANT words.. nothin more-nothin less,,


L: heyy wat u doin?
J: heyy i'm late again..
L: it's ok, i'm always late
J: haha.. i kno.. i went at rob earlier.. and i splurge! lol
L: oh.. really what u get me?
J: yah! i bought u a ck boxer shorts..
L: ok good
J: its a polka dot. red and yellow
L: just how i like it.. hahahaha
J: u sleepy now
L: later mom lol
J: don't call me mom
L: what can i call u then
J: call me sexy..
(i wish i sed BABY.. nah.. not now.. i wanna continue the chasing..hahahaha
L: hinde pa sexy.lol
J: lol. good
L: ano gawa mo sexy.lol
J: thinking
L: ano thoughts mo? pizza?
J: thoughts of you lol.
hahaha.. so am i still pakipot? nah.. im just sayin to him what he's saying to me.. he always have those lines.. wait and see..
L: lol..luv in the club..
and whenever i have those kind of espisodes.. he won't make sakay.. and always joke around.. haaay.. if only he sed.. really u are thinkin of me? ive been thinkin a lot about you too.. our convo might go a long way..hahahaha.. but, then again i still love the chasing part..

oh well.. he's always like that.. whenever he thinks he sed sumthin special.. he always add lol.. or jk.. but i always kno that jokes are half meant.. and he knows that i kno that..lol.. yah ryt watever.. i cud have blogged all the sweetest lines he told me from day 1 till now.. and who knows our story might be on a big screen sumday.. yah.. enough.. i need to go home now.. its freakin cold here in the office.. i can't wait to talk to him again tomorrow.. and can't wait to blog it again..hahahaha..

Life is full of surprises.. I wish to have the surprise ive been wanting to have.. ahm.. L? .. can we be more less-playful and start to get serious?.. because.. because..nah.. nevermind.. i still love the chasing part.. hahahaha..